Update on Ausjenny

Wanted to update you on how I am. What I am learning etc. I can finally say the headache I have been waking up to each day has gone from a seven out of ten to about a one out of ten. This morning it was there but not debilitating like the past several mornings. I am still suffering from dizziness which is frustrating and feel so tired. But today not as tired as I have been.


Friday I got the news that there is nothing to worry about the tests came back negative and while I wasn't really dwelling on it or worried I think the back of my mind was a little worried. The exhaustion has lifted as well. It felt like when you go to the dentist and the anesthetic  is wearing off you can feel the tightness then its fine that is sort of how the exhaustion felt as it left. I am eating better and am using this to start eating healthier. 


I am so thankful for the neighbours and the food they brought over. I have extra in the freezer now which is a real blessing. I am also thankful for friend who have shopped for me as I now am well stocked in iron rich foods. I have never been this weak and lethargic. I actually went 10 days without reading and even now its not the amounts I would normally read but I am reading a little. I am trying to do little things as sitting here is sending me stir crazy. I am not really wanting to watch tv. I have found I feel the cold so much more and when cold have less energy.


I haven't made it shopping yet so no slippers but I have packed a toiletry bag and put it where it can be found so I am prepared in future. The one thing I missed more than anything was a comb. I still need to buy an extra one to put in the bag. 


I have learnt its ok to accept help, I am so use to being independent that its hard to accept help but I need it and am grateful. Having my bed made when I got home was a real blessing. I have a couple of beautiful plants to enjoy which really brightens the room. 


I have a new theme song "One day at a time Sweet Jesus" its very appropriate and I have been playing it a lot. I know I will get better each day and know not to rush it. 


One last comment thank you to everyone who has been praying I have felt the prayers and I have needed them. It is so humbling to know so many people care. I don't have a big network here where I live and to be able to put a request on a board or group in the middle of the night when I was having nightmares and other issues was so reassuring and I know those prayers got me through at least one really bad night.

Why the absence?

Hi all, just wanted to say the reason for no posts for a week is I was one sick little vegemite.
I collapsed at home and ended up in hospital having surgery and needing blood transfusions.
Basically but by the Grace of God I would not be here. I am so thankful for my friend who I finally was able text after around 3 hours on the floor who then rang me and got a friend who came and rang the ambulance for me. I am thankful for the wonderful Dr's where where I am and the Medical staff I know I scared them and several stayed later to help. God provided what was needed in many ways by having the right Dr there when it was needed.


For anyone who knows me well they know I have a major fear of both drs and hospitals. When I was five I had some teeth out and a nurse coming of night duty thought she would have fun with me and said I am so hungry I am going to have a piece of you when you go under for breakfast. I came too to check I was all there. the next time I was in hospital was at 8 where I was terrified from that previous encounter. I have now overcome both fears, I am still sure there is a little bit there but I felt so comfortable there and am so happy. My fear almost killed me.


I am thankful for friends also. I am still coming to terms with what happened and have to realise it takes time to get better.


What I have learnt is that even in the crisis I remained calm I knew I needed to try and get warm and move of the tiles. I knew I couldn't stand so tried to take it slow and got to the carpet. I also learnt clocks are fascinating. I watched it like it was a TV. Also going to buy some slippers and have a toilet bag packed!


I am just so grateful to God for being with me and going before to prepare a way for me. I know it was a close call and know God was there with me he kept me calm. I also am thankful to one of the nursing staff who prayed for me at a time when I was really scared and I wasn't doing well. It was so encouraging.


To my author friends I could see this situation in a book. (Of course it will be a younger person) Maybe young heroine living on own collapses in there back room can't move far or get to the phone. New hero neighbour sees lots of lights on when it is now daylight and wonders if something is up. goes over looks in the window sees heroine on floor and thus the story starts. add to the fact the heroine has a deadly fear of drs and hospitals!


I am still very weak and tired and also dizzy but so much better than I was.