Am sharing a few photos of my tulips today so you can have a pretty picture amongst the post.
The past couple of days have been hard. I have been so tired that little things trigger me. Sunday I cried alot and then yesterday was similar. I was so tired I was just not coping. One thing that does help is walking it gets me out and is good for me.
Today after another sleepless night and feeling so totally overwhelmed I rang to see if I could see my dr and was able to get in today. One question what's stopping you from sleeping, well it could be that not sleeping! The more I can't sleep the more I worry about not sleeping which leads to not sleeping. I was also worried about not eating enough iron as I am not eating well as I am to tired to prepare food and don't know what I really want. I have been enjoying milkshakes but not wanting lots of foods. She said my colour is looking good (compared to what it was its really good) and didn't seem worried about the iron issue so I'm not worried anymore. Also a couple of other things I was thinking on are no longer an issue. It was good to be told I am doing the right things to help me through this time and offered suggestions for sleeping. The hardest is staying up til 10.30 pm which was my old lights out time. I need to try to get back to the habit of going to bed at this time so I have more chance of sleeping. Also a few other things to try. Getting the sleep pattern back will set me up for long term.
I was having a hard morning but leaving the clinic I felt so much more positive and felt I finally had some answers and suggestions to help.
I said going in that I felt like I had been put in a strange city and needed to get to point B without being given directions or any clues as to how to get there. It seemed people were telling me I would make it but not giving any directions or information to where the final destination was. I feel now I have at least a clue as to where to go. I am a practical person who needs practical choices.
I am struggling to stay up tonight but will try to make it til 10.30 and am putting in some of the suggestions. I even had tea tonight and it wasn't as big an effort, I may not have eaten it all but I did eat enough and I don't stress now if I can't eat an entire meal as any is better than nothing.