Why the absence?

Hi all, just wanted to say the reason for no posts for a week is I was one sick little vegemite.
I collapsed at home and ended up in hospital having surgery and needing blood transfusions.
Basically but by the Grace of God I would not be here. I am so thankful for my friend who I finally was able text after around 3 hours on the floor who then rang me and got a friend who came and rang the ambulance for me. I am thankful for the wonderful Dr's where where I am and the Medical staff I know I scared them and several stayed later to help. God provided what was needed in many ways by having the right Dr there when it was needed.


For anyone who knows me well they know I have a major fear of both drs and hospitals. When I was five I had some teeth out and a nurse coming of night duty thought she would have fun with me and said I am so hungry I am going to have a piece of you when you go under for breakfast. I came too to check I was all there. the next time I was in hospital was at 8 where I was terrified from that previous encounter. I have now overcome both fears, I am still sure there is a little bit there but I felt so comfortable there and am so happy. My fear almost killed me.


I am thankful for friends also. I am still coming to terms with what happened and have to realise it takes time to get better.


What I have learnt is that even in the crisis I remained calm I knew I needed to try and get warm and move of the tiles. I knew I couldn't stand so tried to take it slow and got to the carpet. I also learnt clocks are fascinating. I watched it like it was a TV. Also going to buy some slippers and have a toilet bag packed!


I am just so grateful to God for being with me and going before to prepare a way for me. I know it was a close call and know God was there with me he kept me calm. I also am thankful to one of the nursing staff who prayed for me at a time when I was really scared and I wasn't doing well. It was so encouraging.


To my author friends I could see this situation in a book. (Of course it will be a younger person) Maybe young heroine living on own collapses in there back room can't move far or get to the phone. New hero neighbour sees lots of lights on when it is now daylight and wonders if something is up. goes over looks in the window sees heroine on floor and thus the story starts. add to the fact the heroine has a deadly fear of drs and hospitals!


I am still very weak and tired and also dizzy but so much better than I was.